Let me rewind about my health history and hopefully this post pushes you to go out and see your doctor or therapist you've been wanting to see. I've always been in a state of "OK health" not bad, but not great.  When I was younger I had great health coverage, I was able to make appointment, referrals were fast, you name it. For some reason my health provider changed and I was left with basically a shit job of a provider (now that I have amazing health care/provider, I am able to say that). 

*So as a reference I'm going to refer to my health care provider as "the clinic" and what I have now is Kaiser. *

One day I felt an immense pain in my chest and had to book an appointment to see a doctor. Called the clinic was told that the earliest appointment would be in 3 weeks, yeah CHEST PAIN, 3 WEEKS. Can you believe I had to wait a month for this crap. Anyways, my appointment day comes and I explained my symptoms and she explained to me that it is probably the muscles in my back. She then asked me what I wanted to do, my initial reaction was, "uhm, I don't know that's why I came to you." I left there with 800mg of ibuprofen and lost hope. I didn't even get offered a follow up appointment or anything. I asked to change my doctor right then and there and got assigned a new doctor. Being assigned a new doctor was no help at all either because he was equally bad as the former. The clinic also has a strange way of making appointments as well, you couldn't make an appointment at the clinic, you had to call their appointment line. 

There was one thing the first doctor was right about and it was the pain in my back. It gradually got worst and worse. I had this horrible pain in my shoulder blade and every time I try address it to my doctor he would simply state, " you're young, you shouldn't be having these problem." ARE YOU KIDDING ME, you know how many young people have health problems, you know how many people are BORN with health issues beyond their control!!! Besides the whole muscle pain thing I had several different health problems, like the huge bump that suddenly appeared on my neck. So here I go again attempting to figure out what the heck is on my neck only to wait 3 and a half weeks for an appointment. I walk in hoping for him take an xray or something, but nope.Apparently, he was "late to a meeting" so he had to rush my appointment. Basically, he felt my neck said, " your lymph nodes are probably swollen because you may have been sick" UHM, NO, I've had this bump for over 1 year and if you would give me time to talk then you would know. Anyways, I can go on and on about how crappy the clinic is and how flipping NEGLIGENT they are. 

I knew that I needed to invest in my health because each day that passed by I felt my health declining. I felt so bad as my back pain manifested into my whole back being completely fucked up. I developed anxiety because of all the health shit I've been going through. My blood pressure was at it's all time high and I would be in and out of the ER. I knew something had to change. I knew that I needed better resources for my health and decide to go for Kaiser. Everyone that I know loves Kaiser and now that I am in Kaiser, I love it just as much as them. There was a struggle to get Kaiser because they had all these prerequisites but the moment I found out that I got approved, I was literally the happiest person in the world. 

 I felt so safe to know that my health is finally in the hands of these professionals. As I was scrolling looking for a doctor I bursted into tears. They had MDs ( regular doctors) and DO ( doctors that take a more natural route). Immediately tears started rolling down my eyes as I have never seen or heard of this before. You can change doctors in a click of a mouse. Where at the clinic it would be a month process. You can email your doctor and get a responses within 24 hours, book an appointment online, etc, which again was unheard of at the clinic. I have finally reached heaven. 

The first day I am there for a physical and I tell her all my concerns. I told her EVERYTHING and my doctor made sure that all my concerns were met. I told her about the bump and she immediately scheduled me for an ultrasound to see if it was cancerous. For once in my life I felt secure, I felt that hope was around the corner and that everything will be ok for me. She referred me to all the specialties I needed, I have a physical therapist, a nutritionist, and now a stress management therapist. All this happen in a span of 3 months. Where at the clinic I have been there for almost 10 years and I was on the path to nowhere. 

There are days when I have my aches and pains but just knowing that I can contact my doctor anytime really gives me peace of mind. When your health is on its way to healing or when it's at its best this is when you stop worrying and can finally conquer the world! ok jk maybe not conquer the world but maybe a city? ok jk again you know what I mean though. take care of yourself be the best version of you possible.